Here's to the WEEKEND!

Ok so most ppl know that the 2 hardest times to stick to a healthy eating plan is A) during the Holidays and B) on the weekends. So this was not one but two of those options. My moms birthday celebration was this Sunday and guess who was responsible for the menu.....?? Me (and my sisters but they don't really cook a lot so..... ) So I had to come up with something that was Vegan friendly and appetizing for the rest of the family. I actually did pretty well, Im supper proud of myself! It makes me feel like I can live and enjoy life and still stick to my lifestyle! I had a piece of birthday cake which of course is NOT Vegan but other than that I did really GOOD! My headaches have almost gone away....from the caffeine with draws. I am learning new recipes to feed the kids daily. I found Veggie Hot Dogs for them, and a way to make REAL oatmeal with NO sugar added that they loved (They will be fed as close to vegetarian as possible, not Vegan). All in all I've learned a lot in these last few days that I hope will carry on for the rest of my life. I even took  a jog today! :)

I guess Im supposed to be SICK

Ok my first day of being a plant eating, whole grain eating, no sugar eating, no processed food eating fool was a SUCCESS....I feel great! Let me rephrase that last statement, I feel great minus the headache; which i'm guessing is from the fact that I am addicted to CAFFEINE and SUGAR...other than that Im feeling at the top of my game.
            I see only a few problems with being a Vegan. #1 everyone around you is NOT, so it will be a challenge to live in a world that is eating all the things you used to be an addict to. My everyday menu would consist of maybe; COFFEE before my eyes even were fully open accompanied by a processed cereal for breakfast like lucky charms with almond milk (only cause I'm slightly lactose), a snack would be the bread and tons of butter I would eat at work, lunch would be something I ordered from one of the worst restaurants to eat at which was usually something with pasta lots of butter and a whole chicken (they are known for ridiculously large portions and high calorie content), when I got home I needed some more sugar so I would snack on a greek yogurt with fruit, dinner would be something like chicken fajitas wrapped in flour tortillas and topped heavily with cheese, sour cream, and bag guacamole, dessert (yes Im not this big for just any reason) was usually ice-cream or maybe a Starbucks Frapp, or a trip to Yogurt-Land. Its not a shock to me why I am so heavy and lathargic, it wasn't that I was in denial to my weight, I was in denial about having to change my lifestyle, I thought maybe I could just excersise a few times a week and then I would drop the weight. Wrong! The more I tried to do right by excersising I would get frustrated even more cause nothing would happen and then I would give up and in order to mask my saddness and feelings of failure I would, EAT!!!
      #2 Everyone says its going to be sooooooo hard and Im probably going to get deathly ILL....ok here is my question to those ppl, If I wasn't sick eating like a pregnant elephant whyyyyyyyy would I be sick eating ONLY whole and natural foods. It kinda makes me sad. For years I had eaten like a savage beast, devouring everything in sight like I had never eaten in my life and didn't know where my next meal was coming from or if it would even happen...so why would taking all the bad stuff out of my life make me so sick? Whats that all about? And how come no one said anything about my eating habits before I started all of this? Like "hey just a heads up YOU'RE KILLING YOURSELF!!!" I guess, its taboo, its a touchy subject, or its politically incorrect would  have probably been one of the reasons. So with that said I appreciate all of the encouragement and kind words its the fact that Im supposed to be sick is what gets me. Im already sick, Im overweight and I feel like death. I'll take my chances as a Vegan.  

Sobriety begins today

I am 25 years old, a mother of 2, a wife, and Im ADDICTED to food. I have always loved food, ever since I can remember food has been my vice, my whole life as a Hispanic female has revolved around it! Parties, Holidays...honestly just everyday life. Well I mean its hard not to love the thing your very survival depends on. Food is not like any other drug, other drugs you don't need to live, you don't have to be around other drugs everyday for the rest of your life....food on the other hand is a necessity. Every street corner here in So Cal rings true to that very necessity, there is some kind of food related establishment ready to feed me and so many other "hungry" addicted americans. So here I am so tired of living this way, so sick of being some person I never thought I would be, Im over 100 lbs overweight, and each day is a vicious battle with food. I know I have to loose weight for my children; they deserve a healthy active mom. For my husband; he deserves a strong, confident, beautiful partner. For my family; i'm almost positive they don't wanna burry me in a couple years. Most of all for me; i deserve to live my life, to seize each day, to feel healthy and vibrant. I deserve to live life the way I've dream about every day. I always thought of myself as outgoing, funny, a leader, go getter, passionate, artistic, full of life....but these days that person is slipping further and further away. I am not social at all, I sabotage almost every relationship that isn't family, I hardly stand up for the things I believe in, Im lazier than ever before, and everyday I hope for the next to be the day my life changes. Planning for a future that will never exist. So that's it!!!!!! I saw a documentary last night that has changed my view on everything FOOD related!!!! I definitely understand that I am a food addicted, heavily addicted to caffeine, sugar and foods that are high in calories, super processed, and extremely low in nutritional value. To make things worse my children are just as addicted. I refuse to pass on this way of living to my children. I am not only doing this for me but for them as well, which is going to be such a challenge! My son is such a picky eater and prefers only the animal protein that is served to him, he hates anything that resembles a vegetable, and my daughter who is over weight at 7 years old also has a love affair with food. So this is it. We are going Vegan!!! Well at least we will try to be close to Vegan as possible. We are a household that only has one income at the moment. So we struggle with $$ every single month. Its going to be a challenge to eat Vegan because its more expensive than buying processed food. I mean a package of top ramen noodles costs less than a quarter, ridiculous right?? Sobriety begins today!!! This blog will be dedicated to my struggle, rants, raves, and VICTORIES as a mother of two young picky eating children, a wife, and a food addict going Vegan in a carnivorous, fat, and sick world.